longing for the benjiness

one fine morning outside Sears Tower. we were so young!!! haha.

ang tagal na since the last time i've been with my kapatids sa access and i hope there would be chance (sooner) that we can get together. especially batch 2, i really miss you all guys! char.

but really, i can't help but feel sad whenever access comes across my mind. maybe it's with the longing. the experience is just so enormously happy it seems like nothing can ever be compared to it. or yet, it also comes with the idea that there would be no second time for that no matter how hard i hope that there would still be.

i miss the laughs. BENJI! that's how we are. and when we say benji, that means fun, fun, fun. there's a lot of things to laugh about when i'm with these people. i will never forget that every night during the access program, we'd rather not sleep because we just talked about funny things that would make us all laugh our hearts out.

being able to "unearth" the benjiness in us while realizing our worth as potential leaders was the most interesting part and perhaps the most contributing experience we would ever have in our lives. so i will ever for a second get to thinking, it's irreplaceable. dang!

i also miss US just as how much i miss them. to go back to the states is like becoming my mission now. i have to go back there. sometimes i think that having gone there was a burden because i'm craving for it now. worse, i've been a less nationalistic. joke! the fact is i'm too proud to be pinoy! but i can be the proud pinoy wherever i go because the life i want to live is the life i can get sa tate. char again.

and just before i finish this post, dr. sue posted on my facebook wall that we'll be having follow-on activity in Mactan on january 8-12 next year. sounds fun! hope we're invited.